bukidnon break.. take 2!!

here are some of the pics that i was able to take during my recent bukidnon break.. :)

of course when you say Bukidnon, there should be a lot of bukids! hehe.. just some of the green bukid shots.. we went there by 5pm and went back to manolo by 8am, which explains why some shots are darker than the other shots.. the scenery there is to die for, i swear!! :D

while we were in the terminal waiting for kuya santi.. i never knew my cousin had super powers! i thought he was just super vain and not super electrica... wait.. did i just say electrica? oooops! :)) *peace*

aaaaah.. (-.-) isn't he adorable?.. he's mark gregory encarnacion jr. a.k.a james.. he's still a week old in these photos and he's just soooo cute.. he was really tiny and looked so fragile that i never really dared to carry him.. :)

aaaaaaargh!!

there are just sooooo many things in my head right now and i just wanna break down and start throwing and breaking things!!

ONE: i could not graduate on-time if i can not find ways to squeez-in two 3unit subjects within the remaining 4 semesters including this upcoming sem.. just because of 2 minor 3unit subjects?! f*** it!! my teacher kept on telling me that i should have had summer classes, then i wouldn't have this problem.. but if i entertained my academic need first over my physical and emotional need, that would be irrational and unfair i may say..

SECOND: i was recently elected as the vice president for external affairs for our organization, JPIA (Junior Philippine Institute of Accountants) - school base.. then just today, my teacher told me that there's a huge possibility that i will be the president of the org if our current elected president would be elected as the college governor.. what?! just too much for me.. i have zero idea on what to do and on how to deal with it.. it's just so insane..

THIRD: i have 4.. yes.. 4!! not 1, not 2, not 3, but FOUR ACCOUNTING SUBJECTS this semester!! i have financial accounting, cost accounting, managerial accounting, and taxation all at once!!

if anyone can help me juggle all of these.. please i'm begging you.. HEEEEEEEELP!!! :'(

a bukidnon break..

we left iligan for bukidnon by 5am.. i only had 2 hours of sleep but i was used to it so my day started off fine,, not until i found my camera batteries drained!! i was so upset coz i planned to take tons of pictures during the trip to post them here.. i ended up putting my camera in my bag and just hugged a pillow hoping to take a nap.. as the trip went on, my uncle and my mom started talking about intelligent and funny stuff which made the entire trip educational and fun.. the breakfast (already in bukidnon) was kinda heavy yet very tasty!! i then wrestled with my cousins after the meal.. :)

we'd be leaving for cdo an hour from now to get some stuff then be back here in bukidnon right after our business there is done.. what i'm really excited about in this trip is visiting kuya santi and seeing his new-born junior Mark Gregory.. i hope my camera would work right by that time.. :)

my bestest!! :)

these are the people who make my life easy and happy and amazing..

my gorgeous cousins!! (L to R: jedan, kuya santi, me, dandan, loloy, junjun, candy)

simply the best people in the whole wide wide wide universe.. :D

THANKS GUYS!! i love you sooooo much!!

observations..

the US of A's president is now black.. the once deep rivers are now just bare cracked soil due to global warming.. the cellphone that was once so huge in huge suitcases are now so portable, so small, and has the most sensitive monitors that they are already touch-screens.. changes of the world is constant and fast i may say..

changes are very observable in places and in people that you often see; in my case, our household and my family.. well, there has been a lot aside from the huge change which is the absence of my father whom i see and talk to everyday..

my sister, the youngest of my siblings has grown big, like sideways!! it's insane.. i don't see her munch a lot of calories and yet she grew so big really fast.. my mom just laugh at me when i tell her my amusement about my sisters growth..

another thing is my nephew Karl Cedric whom we fondly call migs.. he's actually not the "physical activities" type of kid.. he loves his book and the computer over the running and the exposure to the sun.. but surprisingly these past few days, he has been constant on the outdoors and even learned how to bike without his training wheels for just like four days.. amazing for a kid his type.. but i'm more than proud of his biking achievement!! :)

and lastly, my brother who has been known in the house for his being thrifty just gambled a sum amount of money on a cock fight!! i was like, "what?! who are you?!" haha.. but it's really just surprising.. i hope he doesn't do this often or else i'll send him into a rehab! if there's any for gambling addicts..

so that's it! just some surprising and uhmmm, cute observations in my household.. how 'bout you? any changes in your surroundings? it might be fun to hear them.. :)

The entry that I might not read again..

There isn’t an exact word in the dictionary that could exactly define how bad I feel right now.. it’s almost 2 months since daddy passed away and everything from that day still haunts me now.. Those traumatic scenes keep on flashing into my head and I’m still trying to find ways on how to shake them off my head easily..

After my dad’s burial and by the time we returned home, I suffered from extreme trauma.. I would not sleep the entire night, for weeks, due to paranoia that my mom might die next, or that what happened to my dad might also happen to mom and we’d all be living without a parent.. well incase you do not know, my dad died of cardiac arrest due to excess bad cholesterol, which they say blocked an artery of his heart.. I’d just leave it at that coz I do not want to dig into details of what had happened.. going back, I spent those sleepless nights crying, looking at my mom and checking if she’s still breathing, and so on.. up to know, I’m still not spared of these very disturbing thoughts but it isn’t as insane as before.. I got out a bit from that paranoia through openly talking about everything with my mom, my siblings, my aunts and uncles, cousins and friends (a HUMONGOUS THANKS to all of you! J).. they did not spare me from their advices through personal conversations, calls, and text messages, even up to now..

Never have I imagined that I’d go through something as bad as this.. Honestly, there were times that I tried to ask God in my head “why us?”, or “why this?”, or “why him, of all people?!”.. But it did not help.. pastors that gave prayer services for our family kept on reminding us that “God has a purpose for everything”.. and for sure, it would be good..

Writing has really been the best way for me to express my thoughts and feelings ever since (FYI: I had been keeping a diary since first grade).. but also, ever since I tried expressing myself through writing, I did not write much about the bad moments that I’ve had.. I love reading my previous journals over and over again and given this, recalling my bad moments is just not my thing; I just hate remembering them.. and that is the reason why I gave this entry its title.. I actually had no intention of having a blog entry about the worst moments of my life but by the time a good friend of mine (who is a good writer..) tried to convince me to vent everything through writing, I gave it second thoughts, and eventually realized that it could help..

I do not know how me and my family could stand-up again after falling so hard, how we could put everything back into its rhythm..
the only thing I know is that GOD IS ALWAYS WITH US..
PRAYER is now our best weapon..

And to my dad, the man who’ll always reign supreme in my heart, may you rest in peace.. thanks a lot for everything!!
WE MISS YOU and WE’LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU..
See you in the next life.. :)